pub-4564465823266615 FORGIVE YOURSELF ~ Writers Guild Chuka University

Monday, 11 March 2019

FORGIVE YOURSELF




By Virginia Kaggia

It’s easy to forget we aren’t indestructible. Blinded by burning, scaring heights of being on the earth, it is easy to feel untouchable and firmly in control; hands on the wheel, life grasped tight and warm in both fists. We forget we don’t   possess infinite wisdom or the ability to know the outcome of every choice we make. Our skin isn’t dragon scale, our eyes aren’t all seeing and our hearts rarely have what makes sense.

We stumble, we fall.

Sometimes we let people see our tears, our anger and our passion that for some reason we struggle to hide. We love too much, too little or at the wrong time. We are quick to blame or not quick enough.

We laugh when we shouldn’t, grimace when smile should curve our lips. Our attention wander or is focused laser- precise on something not made to last, not worthy of our unwavering concentration.
We hurt ourselves, and others with intention, ignorance and regret.

Lessons learnt, a mistake made and made again, none of these is new. The people before us separated by centuries have tripped over all the same stones we do. Bleeding hearts and self-loathing have crafted stories, plays, paintings and essays that make through time to connect our despairs and joy to that of people long dead.

We are all the same in the sense that we are born knowing but a little. And yet we berate ourselves endlessly for the mistakes we make.

“I should have known better” “I should have seen the signs” “I should have listened” “I should have been there” “ I should have stayed” “I should have left” “I should have said that” “ I should have done that” “I’m stupid, how did this happen” Forgive yourself. Like all before you and all to come you’re human.

Forgive yourself for the mountains we couldn’t climb, the oceans we couldn’t swim. Forgive yourself for the waves you couldn’t ride, the tide you wouldn’t fight. Forgive yourself for not seeing the storm before the clouds, the lightning before the flash.

Forgive yourself for all the times you didn’t know better, and the times you did and acted anyway. There will be more peaks to conquer and more oceans to cross. there will be more storms to brave and moments and choices will appear before you, the opportunity to use what you have learnt.

The pain you’ve caused, the wounds you carry, the scars you hide. Don’t bear the human condition like the upon your back.

We stumble, we fall and we rise. Please forgive yourself.

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1 comment:

  1. this is amazing, the emotions elicited from this piece are just overwhelming.

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